Ok, since no one got the allusion I’m gonna have to give you the answer. The Things They Carried by Tim O’Brien. Short story about soldiers in the Vietnam War which uses physical items they carried as a metaphor for the emotional burdens they carried. Basically, it was a cute way of whining about all the responsibility i have.

“You know you’re in a bad place with pride when you think everything you do for God is too much and everything He does for you is too little.” (>>)